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Thursday, July 5, 2012

Why Do I Doubt?!

I haven't updated this blog in a while, well...honestly, because work has been tough. I had written grant after grant. I had been playing the waiting game, trying to be patient for responses from my grant requests, but for several months, I heard nothing.

I really do believe so much in First Glance and its mission, and I feel responsible for the financial well-being of the organization. I mean, that's my job. But I was trying and pushing for funds, and the wells of funding remained stagnant.

Then, after a while with no answers, foundations begin responding. Each with a "no." The waiting game and the rejections hit me hard. I felt like I was failing completely. Not to mention, I had made the transition to full-time at First Glance, and though it was/is a blessing, it was definitely a transition. AND Josh and I had moved into the Kenmore community (a great story that I shall write about later), and unpacking was stressing me out.

All things combined = a broken-down, worn-out Kendra

My co-workers took notice and came to my rescue, making me take a Friday afternoon off with the promise that I would have fun--No work, no unpacking. (In case you are wondering, I used the afternoon to play with puppies and go thrifting. Quite an enjoyable time!)

When I returned to work on Monday, God had a little surprise for me. Not only had we found a potential Business Director and database system (two things that will make fundraising more organized and streamlined), but we had received a random $5,000 donation from a  foundation! One of the foundation's donors had requested these funds be sent to us, and I cannot tell you just how encouraging that was!

The most amazing thing about it is that repeatedly God is providing for First Glance in ways that no one can truly take credit except Him. I believe it is His way of showing us that He also believes in what we are doing here, leaving me with the question "Why do I ever doubt Him?!"